second gear....

point of the week...

-dan brought me HUGE cucumbers from his garden and i made yummy salad...
-i've been woken up at least three times a night due to lock outs...
-i've spend more time in lab the past two days than i can handle...
-ketones, esters, carboxylic acids,malonic acid, cyanohyrides, MICHAEL reactions (yes it makes me sad that there is a michael reaction), aldol reactions....I DO NOT UNDERSTAND!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
-i can't speak to my parents in a normal tone of voice because they have gotten on my last nerve...for no reason
-page at 4AM last night led to a very hot young man who had a great smile...sucks that it was four in the morning and i could barely function...
-i came home and actually screamed into a pillow...it's been a while since i've done that...
- i miss my friends...ALL OF THEM A LOT A LOT A LOT...both west and east...

and yes that sounds silly because i talk to most of them a few times a week...and i see some on the weekends...but really i feed off their energy...and when they are not around...i don't have energy...

i sound like a needy piece of shit...

AHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH!!!

you know what...at least i don't completely feel like a loser because every single person in my orgo class was in the same state of mind...every person that spoke was like "i wanna throw a tantrum" " i hate this..." "are you KIDDING me?"

quote of the day:
" 'i know how you feel...' ' no you don't..' ' yes, i do and you know i didn't have my mom and dad calling me every day telling me it would be okay..." awesome dad, way to make me feel like a spoiled piece of shit....

much love.